I’m self publishing my second book, The Lady in Blue, next week and I’m feeling (well, what I call) the sophomore self-doubt. This isn’t a new phenomenon. An author writes a first book and gets a great response, so they write another book and wonder — will people like this one, too? What if they don’t? And never read my work again? (cue: wailing)
I’d hate to disappoint my readers. I’m not naive. Not everyone is going to love, or even like, my work. (I’m no Hemingway.) But I’d feel awful if you loved GG&G and read The Lady in Blue and thought it was utter crap. That’s the kind of person I am. You tell me, “Your book is shit.” And I say, “I’m so sorry,” (That’s probably something I should explore in therapy) because I hate letting anyone down.
Truthfully, The Lady in Blue was harder to edit. I found myself unsure of last-minute fixes and additions. My editor expertly marked passages where I needed to explore feeeeeelings and I felt like I was being asked to deliver a presentation in Greek. How do I do that? I don’t know how to do that.
Anyway, I think the answer to the sophomore self-doubt is to publish another book. Which I am. In September. And I’m feeling super confident about this manuscript.
Anyone else experience self-doubt on your second book? (Say yes. Say yes.)