I’m self publishing my second book, The Lady in Blue, next week and I’m feeling (well, what I call) the sophomore self-doubt. This isn’t a new phenomenon. An author writes a first book and gets a great response, so they write another book and wonder — will people like this one, too? What if they don’t? And never read my work again? (cue: wailing)
I’d hate to disappoint my readers. I’m not naive. Not everyone is going to love, or even like, my work. (I’m no Hemingway.) But I’d feel awful if you loved GG&G and read The Lady in Blue and thought it was utter crap. That’s the kind of person I am. You tell me, “Your book is shit.” And I say, “I’m so sorry,” (That’s probably something I should explore in therapy) because I hate letting anyone down.
Truthfully, The Lady in Blue was harder to edit. I found myself unsure of last-minute fixes and additions. My editor expertly marked passages where I needed to explore feeeeeelings and I felt like I was being asked to deliver a presentation in Greek. How do I do that? I don’t know how to do that.
Anyway, I think the answer to the sophomore self-doubt is to publish another book. Which I am. In September. And I’m feeling super confident about this manuscript.
Anyone else experience self-doubt on your second book? (Say yes. Say yes.)
I feel like my writer life has been a whirlwind these past few weeks, which is unusual. Grunge Gods came out nearly a year ago and my professional life has been fairly quiet. Until recently. With my self-imposed May 1st deadline fast approaching, I’ve been pushing myself to complete revisions on The Lady in Blue novella and write my jazzy blurb. While I’m waiting on content and line edits, I’m trying to learn a zillion indie publishing things like Draft2Digital and uploading direct to Apple. Also, I’ve participated in two really cool YA marketing events and I’m going to ship copies of Grunge Gods to new homes this week. I’m working on my first draft of Dead and Breakfast, the first in a new YA mystery series and I’ve even lined up a cover artist for the books. I’m striving for an early September release day on that. Lastly, I can show off this amazing illustration that is accompanying my short story, “Graveyard Shift,” in the Brave New Girls anthology which should be out mid June. How kickass is that? Full disclosure: I didn’t draw this. This artwork is by Evelinn Enoksen.
Well, hello 2015. You sure snuck up on me. In the excitement surrounding Hanukkah and Christmas and New Years, I haven’t had much time to catch my breath. And even though my husband has been off for two weeks, I haven’t made much time to write either. Shame on me. I think I need him to go back to work; I definitely need the kids to go back to school, and then I can find my groove again. Right now, my mind is still on vacation.
I’m feeling a little anxious about the new year because I’m itchy to get moving on my projects. 2014 was an amazing year. I had a baby in my car and published my debut novel. That’s crazy. But I’m ready to produce more (books, not babies). I’m revising a novella and I’d like to finish a long overdue draft of a YA mystery AND start the next one in the series. I want to self-publish this year and I’d like to have the first two books in the series done by 2015’s end. For that to happen, I have to change some bad habits (log off Facebook for one thing) and set aside time at night to work. I need to be more efficient.
Happy New Year!
I’m going to be in an anthology! My short story, The Graveyard Shift, will be published in Brave New Girls, an anthology about girls and gadgets. The proceeds will benefit scholarships for girls in STEM fields. My story is a murder mystery about a 17-year-old hacker whose day job is doing maintenance in a futuristic cemetery.
Here’s the sweet cover. Release date: Summer 2015!
My awesome critique partner, Leandra Wallace, had an ambitious idea to get writers of all genres together for some good old fashioned group blogging and she asked me to be a part of it. I am so pleased to be contributing to Across the Board. We are a diverse group of writers from horror to YA to romance. We’re going to cover it all every Monday and Thursday. My post will be up Thursday and sneak peak — I’m going to be talking about the short story. My fave! So check us out and tell your friends.